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There is something here

There's something about peace in this world.
I can feel it so closely sometimes; so closely it gives me this hollow feeling when it goes away(as if I'd always had that happiness and then it'd been lost and all I can do is wear down--but that's just a trick, you see...we acquire happiness, we do.. We let it fill up our soul and, as we pick up and leave behind pieces of the happiness we've come across, we build and rebuild who we are.)
It's almost as if our minds know when we're close to something that could make us stop losing the pieces, but shrug off that thought because it's too crazy or something, to find something like that... But we never tie up this thought with a neat little bow and bury it in the backyard or anything.  That's the funny part -- we think it's crazy, but it's crazy enough that we keep on trying.  It never makes sense, why we do the things we do, but we do them anyway.. and we're constantly searching-- searching and searching like some divine being out there took our key to happiness and hid it in the kind of place that's always too simple a hiding spot to check behind.  So there we are, searching aimlessly in the most difficult of places, perhaps more than once, and occasionally picking up a clue-- another piece...(this would be the "Warm..warmer. you're hot!" part of a searching game), and we still think it can't be so simple.

and it's wonderful, really.
It's absolutely wonderful, the scavenger hunt that life is.
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    SHNDM - Peachcake.
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Nino Ricci

"In another order of things, less fraught, she might have said,
Tell me a story, the way people did around a fire late at night. . . .
She would have asked,
Was there really a tree? Did it happen that way?

And I would have said,
That was one way it could have happened.
And the yes and the no, the precision things took on in the plain world,
would not have mattered so much,
only the story, that bit of hope."
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    The Tea Queens - Love is all around
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Stealth photos of Chris:

I'm so excited the dandelions are back.

(Mental thought: I passed that same street sign. I think I'm enchanted by the fact I remember it so perfectly!
It's so bad.)

It's always so nice to have pizza in the city.

It was amazing to watch everyone else. It's like I was in hundreds and hundreds of different people's worlds today.

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    Neon Sleep
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Growing up has made me self-conscious.
I realize that a lot of people become self-conscious as they are put into high school settings and are always around that popular girl/guy figure...

But that's not what I mean.

I mean that all the things I want to do now are examined and questioned.  It's hard to act on impulse when you're worried society will be offended at something you do.
I hate offending people.

I just miss being able to run across the neighbor's lawn to get the ball that flew over there(because children don't know boundaries) without it being like "Oh, uh. Hey. I'm on your side of the property line."

In case you're wondering, I didn't throw a ball over the property line or anything.
I was just thinking.
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    The Clientele - My Own Face Inside The Trees
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Personality Analysis?

So I was told to draw a picture of a tree, house, or person.  (
It told me this:

Your personality analysis based on this drawing:
You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, and appearance. Depresssed or dejected. You are intuitive. You follow your hunches. You have a high level of awareness.You are emotionally confused.You are a talkative person. You are an independent person and do not depend other peoples' opinions.
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    Billy Joel